This has been a bad week.
I have not done any cycling or anything else come to that. I have been so ill that my whole week has been spent in bed. Total fatigue and really ill.
It has been the worst week I have had since back in last December when it was thought that I wouldn't make it. This past week I didn't think that I was going to make it either.
The terrible thing is that I wouldn't have cared less. I really felt as if I had lost the will to carry on .......
Yesterday I was back at the Chemotherapy day ward for another round of toxins. I explained how I had been to the Doctor and we talked everything through and some adjustments were made to my regular daily medication.
Looking at how fit I was at the top of the Swiss/Italian Alps in the photo at the top of this post I cannot believe that it was me. I would love to feel that fit again but it seems impossible at the moment.....
Sorry there is not much in this blog post this week but I don't have the energy to write or the clarity of mind due to all the brain fog..... .......
So sorry to hear about this week but think positive Trevor you will pull through this. We're all thinking about you & wishing you well.
ReplyDelete@Frank Kernow
ReplyDeleteThanks Frank I really appreciate the good thoughts it must all help my karma.....
Sorry to hear that you've had a bad week Trevor, lets hope the re balanced medication sorts it out. I guess maybe one way of looking at it is that this is the only really bad week you've had since it all started.
ReplyDeleteI too look back and see how fit I was up to the end of May, averaging 200 miles per week and now its an effort to walk 2 miles, and I wonder if I will ever get back to that level. Possibly not, but I am desperate to get back to cycling even if I have to lower my expectations a bit.
I have dates for my CT and MRI scans so the balling is rolling for the next bit.
All the best.
@Dave
ReplyDeleteI think the fact that this has been my only bad week in almost a year has taken me by surprise. I think that is one of the reasons it pushed my mood so low.... When you look back it comes as a bit of a shock that fitness can drop so far and so quickly.I too have lowered my expectations with my cycling even changing the purpose of each ride (When I do manage to get out)
Pleased that you now have your CT and MRI scans and wish you well with them...
Hi Trevor
ReplyDeleteI've been popping in from time to time to see how you're doing, and I'm sending all the warm thoughts I possibly can.
All the very best to you
Alan
@Alan Sloman
ReplyDeleteHi Alan
It's nice to hear from you. I really appreciate all your warm thoughts as I really need them right now....I really do believe that they help.
Hi Trevor,
ReplyDeleteApologies for the late reply to your blog, I was very sorry to read how difficult things have become and have been thinking of you all week. I hope the changes to your medication are helping and that things are improving. I wish there was more that I could say but just want you to know that we are standing with you as you go through this.
All the best,
Peter
@Peter Calcutt
ReplyDeletePleased to see that you have beaten the comments gremlin....
Thanks for your kind thoughts. I really do believe that they help a lot. As you will read in the next post things have improved so that could be down to all the kindness being sent in my direction.....